Heidi’s Happiness
Maybe happiness is this: not feeling like you should be elsewhere,
doing something else, being someone else.
Isaac Asimov
On Sunday, May 7th, a very good friend of mine and I went to the Palisades State Park near Garretson, South Dakota. The description from the State Park website- For millions of years, Split Rock Creek cut deep gorges through Palisades State Park. Geologists estimate the Sioux quartzite spires are 1.2 billion years old. With this kind of history, you know the energy and vibrations are deep and healing.
We went there to write out on paper, those areas of our lives we wanted to release and heal. Once they were written, we said a blessing and burned them in the fire, setting an intention to release and heal. By creating this space we then created art from paint, canvas and other items.
While instantaneous healing is possible, and I believe some areas of my beliefs were healed, I have a couple of others that are a bit deeper and more persistent. Does that mean they aren’t healed? Some would say yes, the way I look at it, they are checking to see if I REALLY want to let them go.
These thought patterns are depression, sadness, grief of what was and wasn’t and “lack of” mentality. I’m finding each time the thought/feeling comes to the surface I acknowledge it and then gently release it. My vision is a place deep inside my emotions, where thoughts have been stored, almost like a cocoon, and there have been many, many of the same thoughts stored there. As each one comes to the surface to make its presence known, I get to look at this beautiful butterfly of belief and release. I no longer want to hold onto it, no matter how beautiful it may be. It doesn’t make me joy-filled, it doesn’t resonate in my body anymore.
I have to share with you a funny though, I was thinking, how many of these thoughts are in there? How many times am I going to need to acknowledge this thought and release it? Is there a number I can count on? Spirit replied, however many there are, continue to release otherwise, you will hold onto, just like you have in the past.
This reminded me of those times I’ve tried to let go, I really have. But the thought persisted and after thirty times of letting go, I relinquished and gave in. If I would have just followed through the thirty-first time I could have been done with it.
What belief patterns are you holding onto that you want to let go? Hang in there, as you continue to let go, no matter if it’s one time to one hundred, allow the new space of allowing come in. Be open to releasing the stuff that keeps you held down, keeps you less than. As you release, no matter how many times, you will make space for the life, feelings and energy your soul yearns for!
