Lately I’ve been really wondering what it’s going to take to really like me. ME.
The way that my body is. The way that I dress. The creases and forms of my face. The way that I see things and don’t get things at all. The way that my body bundles skin and fluff when I sit, and the shape of my thighs.
I’ve been wondering what it would take to love that my face is not symmetrical and work with my hair and the weather instead of always being frustrated at it. To truly only ever ask my body what it wants to wear instead of spending hours judging whether or not I’ll be appropriately dressed for the country and the event.
I’ve spent so much – most – of my life, controlling instead of receiving as evidenced by the way I am with everything. And the last month has been a polar ice cap thaw. Like when your extremities start to warm up after being almost frozen, it’s been painful AF.
But, I’ve made a demand of me. To like me because I’m me. And not because of any other things that I’ve decided makes that a choice worth making.
I’m worth liking by me because I’m me.
Every way we’ve learned to be with ourselves is the universe of judgment.
What is it going to take for us to recognize how deadly that is? How aggressive we are with ourselves?
What’s it going to take for us to reach so deep into a different reality that no one or nothing ever sways us from liking us, ever again?
Heidi here; Not only does this apply to the body, but also our behavior, thoughts and beliefs. We are hard on ourselves; be successful, don’t be lazy, have a positive mind set, don’t be negative, be happy, don’t be sad, what if we love all parts of us? All parts contribute to our whole, and what if, as we accept all parts of ourselves that we each decide how we want to balance these aspects?
Below is a pic of me. My daughter, Britt took this while I was visiting her recently. I am OWNING every bit of me and it is so freeing and expansive. I shouted out to my Grandma Kosier for her upper arms (she was so self-conscious of hers) and thanked her for them. This is freedom. BEing me!
Here’s to a week of you owning YOU, feeling the freedom of BEing YOU. Show up because you are part of All That Is and it’s important that you are here!
Join in the dance of life, sometimes it’s the hustle and sometimes the cha-cha but it’s all a wonderful and amazing dance floor!
